In which we slink guiltily back

So…. here I am!

I am so behind. On everything. I didn’t finish the NaNo novel in time..OOPS. Started on something else though! (Yes, I’m aware that this probably isn’t the greatest thing for me–I always just add more projects when I can’t seem to finish the ones I have going already–but the thought just occurred to me.) I’ll let you in on that a bit later; my subconscious is slightly worrisome and I’ve got to work some stuff out.

Anyway… if you want a first look, here you go: http://www.fictionpress.com/s/2833059/1/Bramley

(I will finish the NaNo novel. And this one. PROMISE.)

Published in: on August 31, 2010 at 11:30 am  Leave a Comment  

In which we write something else

One last little thing: I got a bit distracted today writing something else (by hand), so take that as my excuse for not writing a full 1000 words today… And as proof that I’m not making it up, here’s my tiny piece of drivel:

“Half-truth is all lie, my friend.” And how true is that! As much as we hate to admit it, honesty is usually the best policy. … Usually. Most of the time, telling the truth causes the smallest amount of long-term damage, as painful as it may be at the time. Because really, honestly, let’s face it: the truth always comes out eventually. ALWAYS. And when it does, when it rears its … what, ugly head? I suppose the truth can be ugly… Well. Regardless of the truth-head reared, rear it shall, and then all of the lies will be revealed. What then? Tell a few more lies to try to cover up the lies already uncovered? Sure. Go ahead. But what happens when those lies are revealed? Because they will be. ALWAYS.

Even if you are trying to spare someone’s feelings, they’ll find out. They might sort of appreciate it, but lying probably isn’t going to help them much. But what about the times other than “most of the time”? What if it really is better not to be honest? Less of lie outright and more … lie by omission. Sometimes, keeping your thoughts and feelings to yourself is better than sharing them. Because sharing them would cause too many problems. “A lie would have no sense unless the truth were felt to be dangerous.” … But it all comes out in the end!

[and then I ran out of space.]

Also: Meddle not in the affairs of the dragon, for you are crunchy and taste good with ketchup!!”

Published in: on April 5, 2010 at 11:00 pm  Leave a Comment  

In which we “keep the ball rolling”

Reader(s). You should be oh-so-proud of me. I wrote almost 1000 words today. Almost back up to that 40k word count! As in, 300 more words and we’re there! HURRAH. Then another.. oh… 40k more and we’re done? Christ that’s a lot of words… Then I have to edit the entire manuscript, hopefully not scrap any more large chunks, and get it perfect and sent off before June 1st! Then, I will get a proof copy sent to my (tired) eager hands, and then it will be available for purchase. (:

Which leaves us with the problem of a title… I hate naming things! SO much! Any ideas? I’m open to anything, really. Really.

Goal of the week: at least 1000 words a day. Then, if that goes well, maybe we can extend that goal through the month of April… Might have to! So much to do! But luckily for me, there is also so much homework/studying to avoid!

Published in: on April 5, 2010 at 10:53 pm  Leave a Comment  

In which we figure things out

I’ve got it all figure out, dear readers!! I thought that, over my 10-day spring break, I would be wildly productive and get loads of writing done. Yeah, yeah, I know. Anyone could have told me that that was highly unlikely. Didn’t get much done.. But. BUT. Yesterday, as I was taking a leisurely, 2-hour break after completing my (admittedly long, difficult, and tedious) physics homework, I thought about the chemistry homework I had to do, and instead turned to writing. I reasoned that, even though I wasn’t doing homework, I was doing something of value, right? Right? So I wrote over 2000 words. Which puts a tiny dent in the 12000 I trashed. Tiny, but a dent nonetheless. But see, it wasn’t even my grim reaper story or the Peter Pan thing! It was the NaNo novel. So there. (:

So, kiddies, what have we learned? Write when you should be doing other things, and your adamant avoidance of previous responsibilities will push you forward. Because if you stop writing, you have to do your chemistry homework! But if you think, “Look, I’m on a roll. I’ll just keep writing till I can’t think of anything for a bit..” And before you know it, the words will be spilling onto the page because you can’t stop! No, no stopping; stopping means work. So make a list of all the things you have to do, stick it by your computer, and studiously ignore it until you’ve written a few thousand words every day!!

Published in: on April 5, 2010 at 1:26 pm  Leave a Comment  

Chapter One: part I

… thoughts? (quick first draft)

 

IT WAS HOT in the abandoned subway tunnels. Steam billowed from vents in the ceilings, and condensation collected on the slick walls. Not even the rats were active today. Above ground, the temperatures climbed into the nineties, but below, where it should have been cooler, the poorly ventilated tunnels were like the labyrinthine pipes of a furnace.

On one of the disused platforms, a small boy stretched out on an ancient bench. Its paint was peeling, and the grime of centuries coated its surface. Perspiration glistened on the boy’s brow. He licked his lips, tasting the salt of his own sweat. A flush had crept into his sallow cheeks, and sweat stains blossomed under his arms and at his throat. A limp hand flopped over the edge of the bench and tapped lightly on the cracked tiles below. The boy was twelve; his pre-pubescent form was gangly and thin, with limbs that seemed far too long and out of proportion.

A shout echoed through the tunnel. The boy bolted upright and cocked his head to one side. The shout came again, and this time he was able to pick out the words. “Come on, Sam, where are you?”

He sighed, and his thin shoulders slumped. “I’m over here!” he roared back. Sam lay back down on the bench and closed his eyes. He clawed his limp blonde hair out of his face with a sweaty hand. The heat was stifling, and he didn’t want to move an inch. It made him sleepy and cross.

“There you are!” a voice above him suddenly said. Sam cautiously opened one eye and peered upwards. Another boy stood above him, and older boy. “Well, come on then, up you get!”

Sam sighed, but he dared not disobey. He sat up and drew the back of his hand across his forehead. “Jake,” he said, squinting at the other boy, “are we going somewhere? Are we finding someplace new to live?”

Jake rolled his eyes and lifted Sam to his feet. He was much bigger than the younger boy. At fifteen, he was the oldest of their little group, and he had filled out early. His broad, muscular shoulders strained against his stained white t-shirt, and stubble dotted his face. Dark, deep-set eyes peered out from under thick brows, and a nose broken one too many times featured prominently in his broad face. Jake’s strong jaw and cropped haircut completed the image of terror and compelled Sam to obey his every word.

“No,” Jake said, turning to go, “we aren’t leaving. But Thomas wants to see you.” Sam trotted along behind him without another word, trying desperately to keep up with the older boy’s long strides.

Thomas? he thought to himself. Why would Thomas want to see me? And why would he send Jake to fetch me? He could have easily sent Charlie, John, or the Twins. All of this went on inside Sam’s head; though talkative, by now he knew better than to annoy Jake with his ceaseless chatter.

“There you two are!” a voice called cheerfully.

Sam looked up just in time to avoid walking into Jake. He hadn’t been paying any attention to where they were going. The boys had entered a small, rectangular room, and when Sam looked around, five new pairs of eyes gazed back at him. “I was wondering where you’d gotten to,” the voice called again.

“Sorry Thomas,” Sam said. He shuffled over to sit next to the only other boy his age. “Hey Charlie.”

“Well, now that we’re all here,” Thomas said, moving to stand in the middle of the room, “I’ve got a bit of an announcement!” The boys all fidgeted expectantly. Sam found himself wondering how on earth Thomas managed to stay so cool. He was still wearing those huge boots, jeans, and t-shirt, and yet not a drop of sweat seemed to have formed on the surface of his skin. He looked – Sam thought for a moment, trying to find the right word – invigorated. Jake looked like he always did: solemn and huge and unmoving.

Charlie nudged Sam, who jumped; he’d let his mind wander again. “So, if you’d all chip in to show him the ropes,” Thomas was saying, “I think Chris is really going to like it here, don’t you?” He grinned at the boys, a quick flash of white teeth that always made Sam a little uneasy. He turned away, and it was then that he saw the new boy.

He was tall and lean, but in a hard, muscular kind of way. Sam estimated his age at fourteen, like John and the Twins. He was tan, and light sunburn kissed his cheeks and the bridge of his nose. Sam could only see one of his green eyes; the other was swollen shut. His lip was split, and his knuckles were bruised. Sam made a mental note to stay clear of Chris for a while.

“Well,” Thomas said, clasping his hands together. “I’ll leave you all to it for the rest of the day; back to work tomorrow, lads!” He ducked out of the room with a nod to Jake, and Sam could have sworn he heard him talking to himself again. Thomas was always talking to himself, he’d noticed, almost as though he heard someone talking back. He didn’t have time to think about this further, though, as introductions were being made.

“I’m John,” one of the older boys was saying, extending a hand. Chris shook it cautiously. John’s black hair was constantly falling into his eyes over the frames of his glasses; he shook it away and glanced about the room. “And those two over there are the Twins“ – they nodded to Chris – “and the small boys over there are Charlie – the redhead – and Sam. And that’s Jake,” he added, almost as an afterthought, tipping his head in the larger boy’s direction. “He’s sort of what you’d call Thomas’s right hand man, you know what I mean?” Chris just nodded, trying to keep the names matched to the faces in his head. “Right,” John said. “Let’s go find you somewhere to sleep.” The two of them left through a side door, and the boys gradually dispersed.

“What do you think of him?” Sam asked over his shoulder. He and Charlie were scrambling through a tunnel whose ceiling had collapsed. Charlie panted along behind him.

“Who, Chris? I … don’t know,” Charlie panted. He paused to rest chubby hands on his knees. His face was bright red from the exertion. Sam turned and bounded back toward him. He sat on a pile of concrete slabs.

“It’s been a while since Thomas has brought someone back though, hasn’t it?” he asked, tapping his chin. “I mean, most of us got here around the same time, didn’t we? We was all here together, and now he shows up. Wonder what’s going on,” he mused. Charlie did not reply. He sat down next to Sam and wheezed.

Published in: on April 2, 2010 at 10:59 pm  Leave a Comment  

In which we make a tiny bit of progress

I decided to turn chapter one of my Peter Pan story into a prologue.. Stuff is sort of coming together in my head. Going to jump ahead a bit once I hit chapter one; prologue’s a bit short, and I’m sort of reposting a big chunk of it, but here, my two darling readers, feast your eyes on my latest churned-out rubbish:

Thomas swan-dived out of the second story window. He flapped his arms frantically for a moment before plummeting to the ground, screaming.

Luckily for him, a friendly bush was waiting below to break his fall. He clawed his way out of it and flopped onto the manicured lawn, thinking, not for the first time, that this had happened for the last time. Thomas lay on his back – arms outstretched – and stared at the sky above him. He missed the stars; even here in suburbia, light pollution rendered the brightest of stars invisible. A light misty fog had descended on the neighborhood as well, further obscuring the night sky. Thomas frowned; a bright spot had raced across his field of vision. A shooting star, here?

No, Thomas thought to himself, not a shooting star. He rolled his eyes. She’s got a lot of nerve, showing her face here after what she’s just done.

Out loud, he called, “Come down here; you’ve got some explaining to do.”

The ball of light flickered but drifted slowly down and came to rest on Thomas’s chest. He lifted his head peered down at the light, letting his eyes adjust to the sudden brightness. “Well?” he asked, raising an eyebrow. “What have you got to say for yourself, Tinkerbell?”

The little faerie sneezed, scattering small specks of glitter across Thomas’s t-shirt. He closed his eyes and laid his head back on the grass. Tinkerbell clambered to her feet and brushed off her dress. She clasped her tiny hands behind her back and hung her head, clearly ashamed.

“What was that?” Thomas asked. He sat up, and Tinkerbell tumbled down into his lap, squeaking in alarm. “Sorry, Tink. You were saying?” The faerie frowned up at him. “You’re apologizing? Tink, that’s not going to cut it any more! This has been happening way too often, lately; I need to know that I can count on you! … Yes, I know it was an accident, and – yes, of course I know faerie dust is tricky stuff but – what? Yeah, I’m ok; I fell into that bush over there.” Thomas rubbed his eyes.

“Look, just … try not to let it happen again, okay? I can’t go falling out of any more windows because I think I have faerie dust when I really don’t.”

He got to his feet, and Tinkerbell rose hovering to his shoulder. She landed there and placed a tiny hand on Thomas’s cheek to steady herself. The boy brushed some grass from his ripped jeans and kicked aside a pinecone with a booted foot. Tinkerbell could feel him shivering through his thin blue t-shirt.

The pair wandered silently down the quiet street, and then vanished into the fog.

.    .     .

“You know what we need, Tink?” Thomas asked. He was lounging sideways on an old armchair, legs hanging over one of the arms, picking at bits of stuffing escaping through the holes, talking more to himself than the faerie. Tinkerbell perched on the back of the chair, kicking her tiny heels against the faded upholstery. She wasn’t paying much attention to Thomas, but the boy didn’t seem to mind.

When she didn’t respond, Thomas went on. “People.” The faerie perked up her ears and began studiously examining her nails. Thomas continued voicing his thoughts. “It’s been a bit quiet around here, don’t you think? You know, not like it used to be. We used to have people here…” he said, trailing off. His brow furrowed, and he stared off into space, his eyes unfocused. Tinkerbell fluttered slowly down to Thomas’s knees and alighted there. She peered up into his pale, freckled face; his dark blue eyes stared back into her green ones.

“You’re exactly right, Tink,” Thomas said, lacing his fingers behind his head. “Let’s go make some friends…”

Published in: on April 1, 2010 at 6:51 pm  Leave a Comment  

In which we avoid our homework

I’ve got this monstrous paper due Wednesday morning. It’s for my Greek Mythology class, so it isn’t too bad, but really, 6+ pages on “The Cyclopes in Our Own World” ? Yes, I did choose this topic. Yes, I’m quite fond of the lawless, cannibalistic Cyclopes. Yes, I find it easy to write about the sad state of affairs that is this planet. But … urgh all the same.

Here’s the bit that should be motivating me (and why I started the paper Saturday instead of Tuesday night at 2am): Best essay wins some “something blah blah” award. Which is a great honor in a class of over 500. But that award comes with $500. Yes, that is correct. No, that is not a typo. $500! Wow. I am 5 lines onto my third page, but I’m struggling… Usually I just churn out page after page of rubbish and the teachers seem to like it and it’s all good. But with this one, I know what I want to say but can’t quite put it into the right words. Oh well… Wish me luck, reader(s?)!

AND on top of everything, it is dead week!! Ah dead week, those wonderful 5 days during which the professors freak the hell out because we still have so much to cover, the students freak the hell out because they still have so much reading to catch up on and so many last-minute papers/projects to cobble together, and the rising amount of caffeine consumed is inversely proportional to the number of hours spent asleep (but directly proportional to the number of hours spent staring aimlessly at the same page of that textbook you’ve never opened)

Finals the week after (roommate’s birthday in a week, first day of finals… Mine a week from Friday, last day of finals. NOT. FUN.) and then I am coming home!! Hurrah!! Then it’s visit with the dance buddies, tattoo, physical therapist, dance class, crazy person’s birthday that I may or may not celebrate, visit to doctor for asthma-related-death type symptoms, more dance class, and general laziness. And likely some sort of hair-coloring fiasco since I’ve just lopped it all off. What larks.

Stay classy, children

xoxo

Published in: on March 8, 2010 at 7:08 pm  Comments (1)  

In which we do something silly

So. I’m not too proud of what I did this weekend, writing wise… But. Hopefully it will be worth it in the end!

I had a dance competition this past weekend, and I had to get up v early on Sunday morning (5am). By the time I got into bed on Saturday night, it was after 3. Then my roommate came home (smashed), crawled up onto my bed, and snuggled down next to me for a nice little half-hour chat. By 4, I was desperately trying to fall asleep, but I was unbelievably awake. Next thing I know, my alarm is going off, and I’ve gotten absolutely zero hours of sleep. Woo! Off I go to the dance competition, stagger about because my body knows it’s tired even though my brain can’t seem to agree with it, and then hang around for ages because my friend didn’t dance until late in the afternoon.

Now, here’s where things get dicey. Around 1:30, my brain finally catches on, and I’m practically unconscious in minutes. But not quite. I was sitting in a comfy chair, writing (!!), and I was checking over my manuscript for the NaNo novel. And decided it was crap (fact). I’m not sure what I had been doing, but the last chunk of the 50,000 words wasn’t sitting right; it didn’t quite work out, and with a mystery novel, you can’t just toss in some random rubbish later to fix the disasters you’ve caused. Well, you can, but that’s not the greatest idea in the world. So I deleted a chunk.

And when I say a “chunk,” what I really mean is “12,000 words.”

See my dilemma? I hadn’t backed the entire thing up (stupid..), but honestly, I’m glad I didn’t. If my delirious brain thought it was bad enough to scrap, then it probably had to go. Now I’m even more motivated (ie: a tiny bit motivated) to re-do those 12,000 words and get this bloody thing completed. I’ll be working on “Grim” and my Peter Pan debacle on and off to keep me occupied (damn my short attention span), but this really needs to get done… by May 31, no less! And that means complete EDITED manuscript! … ready?

Published in: on March 2, 2010 at 8:49 pm  Leave a Comment  

In which we start yet another project

Quick little foray into the Peter Pan idea; still working some things out in my head, churned out a few hundred words just to put something on paper. Thoughts?

Thomas screamed as he fell out of the second story window.

Luckily for him, a friendly bush was waiting below him to break his fall. He clawed his way out of it and flopped onto the manicured lawn, thinking, not for the first time, that this had happened for the last time. Thomas lay on his back – arms outstretched – and stared at the sky above him. He missed the stars; even here in suburbia, light pollution rendered the brightest of stars invisible. A light fog had descended on the neighborhood as well, further obscuring the night sky. Thomas frowned; a bright spot had raced across his field of vision. A shooting star, here?

No, Thomas thought to himself, not a shooting star. He rolled his eyes. She’s got a lot of nerve, showing her face here after what she’s just done.

Out loud, he called, “Come down here; you’ve got some explaining to do.”

The ball of light flickered but drifted slowly down and came to rest on Thomas’s chest. He lifted his head peered down at the light, letting his eyes adjust to the sudden brightness. “Well?” he asked, raising an eyebrow. “What have you got to say for yourself, Tinkerbell?”

The little faerie sneezed, scattering small specks of glitter across Thomas’s t-shirt. He closed his eyes and laid his head back on the grass. Tinkerbell clambered to her feet and brushed off her dress. She clasped her tiny hands behind her back and hung her head, clearly ashamed.

“What was that?” Thomas asked. He sat up, and Tinkerbell tumbled down into his lap, squeaking in alarm. “Sorry, Tink. You were saying?” The faerie frowned up at him. “You’re apologizing? Tink, that’s not going to cut it any more! This has been happening way too often, lately; I need to know that I can count on you! … Yes, I know it was an accident, and – yes, of course I know faerie dust is tricky stuff but – what? Yeah, I’m ok; I fell into that bush over there.” Thomas rubbed his eyes. “Look, just … try not to let it happen again, okay? I can’t go falling out of any more windows because I think I have faerie dust when I really don’t.”

He got to his feet, and Tinkerbell rose hovering to his shoulder. She landed there and placed a tiny hand on Thomas’s cheek to steady herself. The boy brushed some grass from his ripped jeans and kicked aside a pinecone with a booted foot. Tinkerbell could feel him shivering through his thin blue t-shirt.

The pair wandered silently down the quiet street, and then vanished into the fog.

Published in: on February 24, 2010 at 5:46 pm  Comments (4)  

In which we get lazy … again

So apparently I’m in for quite a land next week when the best friend gets on my case about the second in my pathetic little series of mystery novels. I’m working on it, really! Well. … Sort of. I got a bit distracted by this thing called university. But never fear, I shall be off and writing again soon (ish).

I did have another idea bouncing around in my head, though. I was thinking about Disney stories and how they’re so … perfect. “ChaknowhatImean?” (If you do not get this reference, go watch “Sarah&Steve” on youtube. now.) I’ve always imagined a darker, more sinister side to things; nothing is that perfect. So. Peter Pan. Think about it. Creepy as hell, actually. Peter “thins out” the group to make room for other boys, he KILLS THEM if they start to grow up (that’s not allowed), they murder pirates, he’s essentially kidnapping, and don’t even get me started on Tinkerbell!! Yes, I see your eyes rolling. “That’s been done! Dark side of Peter Pan; psh, what does she think she is, original?”

Yes. Yes I do. I am aware that such a version has been presented, but we all know that I do things a little differently. I had the idea, then looked things up and saw that there’s actually quite a large online discussion over the creepy bits of the book, and how the movie was scrubbed squeaky clean. I’ve got a good feeling about this one, ladies and gents; let’s hope my attention span is long enough!

Published in: on February 23, 2010 at 12:22 am  Comments (2)  
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